Friday, August 10, 2012

Missing my better half

This was one of the first pictures he ever sent me while we were dating. 
(He's a retard)

 I have been visiting for two weeks. If this was a regular visit I would be on a plane tomorrow heading back home to El paso and David would be at the air port waiting to pick me up. But, I'm not. I will be here visiting until Sept 8th. The only down side is not being with David. I know I joke a lot but everything aside I miss him a ton! I can't help it he's my love! I almost came to tears earlier thinking about not seeing him for another 3 weeks. Then I realized this is just a month away from him. It will soon turn into 9 months. It was easier the first time he went over sea's because I wasn't use to being around him so much and when he went we were only dating at the time. But now its different. We are married and I'm use to being with him 24/7. It's going to be super hard at the end of December. But I'm just going to focus on the time we still have before he leaves. It just sucks that he has training for a full month in California. I mean I want him to go over there ready and at his best so he can come home back to me safely in one piece. I try not to think about it a whole lot. But I'm a worrier. So its always there in the back of my mind. Its strange I miss him more in these two weeks than I do when I miss my family when I'm in El paso. That's saying something. Cause I always miss my family. I don't know I just don't feel like my full regular self with out him. It's crazy. When you realize what you take for granted. At moments you pay no mind to certain things or characteristics and then at time those things you forget to appreciate are the biggest things in the world to you. I'm not going to lie. I take his company for granted. I don't fully appreciate his presence in my life. But right now it's the only thing I want in the world. I want to hear him talking shit and making fun of me and everything I do. And I want to hear him say I'm sorry and I love you when I stop talking to him. Lol. Or just seeing him walk through the door in his uniform like he does every week day from work. He'll open the door smile his big Ole kool-aid smile. And then say "Hey Baby" give me a hug and kiss me on my forehead. I just miss him. I guess this is just a "venting" post. Oh well. Lol I hope he's thinking about me the way I'm thinking about him. Lol he probably isn't. Fat boy.